Bored.

Basically there's no real reasons for this post other than the fact that I'm super bored. I have been for more than the past 24 hours. There's nothing to do in my dorm, but I don't really feel up to going out. I would play World of Warcraft, but my month is up and I tried to add another month, but it's not accepting my billing information. I have no way of calling Blizzard to tell them to fix it, so I e-mailed them. I know it will take them a while to respond though, which is really quite annoying. If I had that, at least I could play a game.

Which reminds me... Now I'm not sure I have to pay for any of my school books. I'm really confused. My Mom and Dad haven't actually talked, but now they mentioned something about splitting the cost of my school books, but I assumed that meant I still had to pay for a portion, but my Dad made it seem like they alone were just paying for it. I wish I knew, but of course my Mom and Dad can't have a civil conversation, so they haven't actually talked about it. I wish they would just get along. I know they have their differences and money is an issue, but it's getting really annoying that after this long they can't even talk to each other without getting in some kind of a fight about something.

Anyway, one of the main reasons I want to know if I have to pay them back for school books is because I really want to buy an Xbox 360. I have enough money for it if I don't have to pay them back. I'm just worried I'll end up playing that all day instead of doing any real work, which obviously would be bad. I really need to get back on track with school. I just feel so unmotivated :(

Seth and Heather are gone for today and they're staying overnight in New York, so I can't hangout with them either. I wish I could though :( I'm still so paranoid I'm going to get too clingy, so I've been trying to text him less so I don't annoy him too much. I talked to him yesterday after work sent me home. That was when I was crying my eyes out... After I got back to my dorm I hadn't text him at all until he text me this morning to ask how I was feeling. He said he got sick yesterday, so I hope he's feeling better today.

I'm also wonder if it's a bad thing that I want to be nice to people? I know it's kind of a weird question, but I feel like I want to be nice to everyone and to have people like me and know that I'm gonna be nice and not be a total bitch to anyone. I'm worried that this will lead to people walking all over me and using me, which is obviously not what I want. I just don't get if "being nice" is a bad thing if you're nice all the time. I mean I doubt I could be really brutally mean to anyone anyways, but I just wonder if I'll come off as a bitch if I don't take crap from people. I don't really know how to explain it. I just want to be nice to people. I like being nice... Is that bad?