I'm still working hard on eating right and exercising this week. I went to the gym today and worked out for around 45 minutes, which I'd consider good. I think in the past I've always tried to dive right in and go to the gym 9725925 hours a week right away. I feel like I need to take my time and work up to the recommended 4 to 5 hours a week in the gym. I plan on going to the gym again on Saturday, so that's 2 days this week. Unlike before where I wasn't going at all... Baby steps :)
I think I'm doing well so far though. I weighed myself today and I weigh 173.5 according to our scale at home. I know that the scale at work will add about 2.5 pounds or so. I definitely know to expect the number to be higher at the weigh in on Monday, but that's ok because I know so far I've tried really hard this week. As a reward, if I follow everything this week to a T, I am going to get a hoodie that I really want at Old Navy. Originally I wasn't sure if it was a good reward for only a week of following my diet plan, but I had written down, go see a movie, as a weekly reward, which ends up being about the same price as the hoodie, so I figure it's ok as a weekly reward. Especially since it's my first week. I'm hoping this will motivate me to keep going. I feel really good about it.
Besides that, I went to see Elaine today. Everything was pretty good. I just need to figure out what I'm doing about health insurance for the next 6 months. The Aetna plan I originally was going to apply for doesn't cover mental health benefits, so basically the two most important doctors I need to go to wouldn't be covered... Problem! So I have to either find another plan under Aetna that does cover mental health benefits or go under my Mom's health insurance at work, which is more expensive.
The whole health insurance thing is just really confusing all together and I think I'm getting a headache just from looking at the computer screen for so long, so I think I'm gonna go now!
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Sunday, 24 January 2010
Hello 2010!
It's a new year! Obviously I haven't written in a long, long time! Stuff has been crazy lately, but I'm back at home now. I decided to withdrawal from university for the fall semester and I'll be taking the spring semester off as well. I really just need the time to figure out what I want to do with my life. I still have no idea. I'm going back to university in the fall 2010, so as of right now I thinking about getting a degree in international studies.
Hm... Yeah... I'm not sure how hard that's gonna be. I really feel like I need to talk to the department and ask how intense of a degree this is. I'm just not sure if I can do it or if I'll end up just getting lazy and not working hard enough and end up in the same position I am now. Granted, I feel a lot better now than I did last semester, so that's a good thing :)
I'm also trying to loose weight. I read "Master Your Metabolism" by Jillian Michaels. It was a good book, just A LOT to take in all at once. I only took it out from the library so I couldn't keep it for myself to refer back to later. I guess the most basic gist of the book is that you should eat whole, organic foods. Like Jillian says in the book, "don't eat it unless it comes from the ground or has a mother." Even though that sounds really weird, it's a good way of remember what you can and cannot eat.
Since I've finished "Master Your Metabolism" I went and got "Winning By Losing" by Jillian Michaels. For some reason she really inspires me to be better... to be healthy. I know I need to take care of myself. I know that what I've been doing, obviously, isn't working out for me. At this point in my life I feel like I'm trying to do the best job I can at taking care of myself. I really, REALLY need to stop worrying about what other people think and just worry about me and take care of myself in the best way possible.
With that said, I started a food diary today and I set goals and rewards for myself. I think that's something important that I didn't really bother to take any time to work on before. I mean I kind of always had an "ultimate" goal in mind of how I wanted to look or how I wanted to be, but now it's down on paper and I have monthly, weekly, and daily goals as well. I think rewards are a big part of my success as well. I know sometimes I feel guilty buying myself stuff, but I think if I succeed at my goals that I have written down, then maybe I deserve a little rewards? I didn't write down any HUGE or costly rewards... Just small things, like a new nail polish, or an episode of Glee, or even a new outfit at the end of the month.
I really hope that I can stick with this. I really, really want to loose the weight. I feel like it will help me in so many ways. It's just something I need to do for myself. I think part of the reason I haven't lost the weight yet is because it's just easier. It's easier to just eat the food that tastes good, but is super crappy for my body. It's easier just to not work hard and go to the gym and keep the weight. I know it's going to be really hard to loose 45 pounds, but in my mind, I know I can do it. Just like I know if I work really hard I can get a degree in international studies. It's just a matter of actually doing it. I know I can do it :)
Hm... Yeah... I'm not sure how hard that's gonna be. I really feel like I need to talk to the department and ask how intense of a degree this is. I'm just not sure if I can do it or if I'll end up just getting lazy and not working hard enough and end up in the same position I am now. Granted, I feel a lot better now than I did last semester, so that's a good thing :)
I'm also trying to loose weight. I read "Master Your Metabolism" by Jillian Michaels. It was a good book, just A LOT to take in all at once. I only took it out from the library so I couldn't keep it for myself to refer back to later. I guess the most basic gist of the book is that you should eat whole, organic foods. Like Jillian says in the book, "don't eat it unless it comes from the ground or has a mother." Even though that sounds really weird, it's a good way of remember what you can and cannot eat.
Since I've finished "Master Your Metabolism" I went and got "Winning By Losing" by Jillian Michaels. For some reason she really inspires me to be better... to be healthy. I know I need to take care of myself. I know that what I've been doing, obviously, isn't working out for me. At this point in my life I feel like I'm trying to do the best job I can at taking care of myself. I really, REALLY need to stop worrying about what other people think and just worry about me and take care of myself in the best way possible.
With that said, I started a food diary today and I set goals and rewards for myself. I think that's something important that I didn't really bother to take any time to work on before. I mean I kind of always had an "ultimate" goal in mind of how I wanted to look or how I wanted to be, but now it's down on paper and I have monthly, weekly, and daily goals as well. I think rewards are a big part of my success as well. I know sometimes I feel guilty buying myself stuff, but I think if I succeed at my goals that I have written down, then maybe I deserve a little rewards? I didn't write down any HUGE or costly rewards... Just small things, like a new nail polish, or an episode of Glee, or even a new outfit at the end of the month.
I really hope that I can stick with this. I really, really want to loose the weight. I feel like it will help me in so many ways. It's just something I need to do for myself. I think part of the reason I haven't lost the weight yet is because it's just easier. It's easier to just eat the food that tastes good, but is super crappy for my body. It's easier just to not work hard and go to the gym and keep the weight. I know it's going to be really hard to loose 45 pounds, but in my mind, I know I can do it. Just like I know if I work really hard I can get a degree in international studies. It's just a matter of actually doing it. I know I can do it :)
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